“Thankful????? FOR WHAT?????”
Do you want the truth? Or something beautiful?
Truth: Everyday is a day of Thanksgiving……
Here’s the truth…..
Thanksgiving Day 2009 (November 26, 2009) is a day I will never forget. It’s 3 a.m. and I’m sound asleep when I feel a tingling on the left side of my face. Before I could open my eyes, the tingling becomes pain and I feel pressure around my neck. Instantly my eyes open, my hands gravitate towards my neck, and I hear a deep voice shouting “B#%^&, I told you not to……”. Gasping for air and fighting to remove his hands, I began to drift away. I can remember clearly the anger in his eyes, the rage in his voice, and feel the pressure of his hands as they clamped my neck. Not knowing what was going to happen to me, I began to cry out, “God, please help me”. When I said this it would seem like my Ex would have taken his hands off my neck, but he didn’t. I guess he wanted to shut me up, so he applied more pressure. It’s now 3:48 a.m. and I gain consciousness, now I feel pressure on my chest along with moisture. I began to cry because I thought he stabbed me and left me for dead, but the pressure was his head as he laid there and cried. His rage is now remorse, anger now regrets, and his deep voice is now soft and filled with fear. Tears soothing the tingling on my face caused by the blow of his hand, heart racing, and afraid for my life, I asked “Why?” He responds “Baby, I’m sorry.” I ask again “Why?” What came next left me speechless and paralyze for hours. I couldn’t move, my body was numb and mind blank. I remember looking at the clock and it showing 10:46 a.m., my family was to arrive at noon. I get up, go into the kitchen and began to finish the thanksgiving dinner. Tears rolling down my face I asked God, “What do I have to be thankful for?” It’s now 11:45, and I’m not dressed. Walking into the bathroom I look at myself in the mirror, my face swollen, eyes red, and neck bruised. Again I ask, “God, what do I have to be thankful for?” I’m now approaching my 3 year anniversary and finally know the answer. When I first asked God what do I have to be thankful for, he answered me, but I didn’t realize it. When I stood in the mirror and asked him, he answered, but I didn’t realize it. Today I know. I’m thankful to be alive, to be out of that abusive marriage, to be able to share my story with other women who are in abusive relationship, and thankful for those of you who are reading this email asking God the same question. If you’re in an abusive relationship and you’re reading this email, be thankful for another chance to get out. Seek help and shelter, and let that situation go. I’m blessed God had more work for me and didn’t allow my ex-husband to kill me, I could be dead today, but I’m so thankful I’m not. You may be wondering what caused him to act this way, well it was because I put cinnamon in the peach cobbler. Yes, cinnamon in the cobbler. November 26, 2009 is a day I will never forget for multiple reasons. It was Thanksgiving, the day I was beaten, and most importantly the day I LEFT.
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