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gonna get it back.
Honor Yourself
i knew i had given up something i loved when i stopped my morning walks.
i knew that.
and wouldn't have stopped for any other reason besides it didn't feel safe anymore.
it made me sad and feel like i lost something i loved.
but i figured i would find what i got on my walks in different ways.
it's been a long time.
and i've tried different things.
but i haven't found anything that did for me what the walks did.
but it has been a long time.
so it's been a real gradual slide into 'whatever.'
without even knowing it.
i like my exercise that i do in the house.
i like the yard work.
and somehow i just let something so important to me just slide away.
the other nite i saw it.
i saw what i had lost.
and i saw how much i needed it.
and i was stunned at how it had slipped away so gradually that i just let it go.
i decided i had to find a way to get it back.
something that important had to be gotten back.
i know some of the key elements i need.
like the sky.
i gotta have the sky.
and bein' outside.
i know yard work distracts me from inner work.
so that's not it.
but i know that much and i plan on playin' around until i figure out how to get back what i lost.
so all that's being looked at.
the point here that i wanted to make is – I LOST IT.
without even knowing it.
i just figured i'd get it back somehow and in that casual figuring, i totally lost it.
how many of us have lost something that is so incredibly valuable to our well being?
how many times have we just let something slip away because we assumed it would
take care of itself? how much have we let go of because we weren't working hard to
keep it?
why do we let that happen?
and what are we gonna do about it?
do we just get old and one day figure out we lost most of the things that made life
worth living?
seemed like something to really notice.
Source: http://bonesigharts.blogspot.com/2015/03/gonna-get-it-back.html
