I may be working out some of my concerns–stated [in the facebook group] already–on my own blog, because this space, itself, is a bit uncomfortable for me–in part due to it being facebook: I dislike the interface, as I’ve stated elsewhere here. (I feel the same way about Tumblr and Twitter!) The way my body/mind works and the way these interfaces work don’t make engaged, sustained conversation very easy for me. Using the image of offline textual communication, It feels like I’m in a room where lots of sheets of discourse get distributed and are almost immediately covered up by lots of others. One paper gets tugged out from the bottom, notes are added, and it is then lost again. I actually tried to go back to the start of this forum and it was, wait for it… virtually impossible.
More seriously, I also need to be sure I am being respectful and accountable to people who are dear to me, to people who I endeavor to serve in my work. And that simply cannot happen in this space because they are not here, as far as I know!
Response-ability and Account-ability to those I structurally oppress is a core radical ‘profeminist’ value. I think the most important thing I’ve learned from radical feminists, white and of color is that I, due to being white and socially experienced, at times, as a patriarchal male, I certainly cannot lead or co-lead people I oppress, or do not see, or do not know, anywhere that is more liberating.
I believe ethical, principled leadership is crucial; however, I am simply too invested in my privileges, advantages, benefits, and entitlements. Chief among those is that I don’t have sufficient insight, whether remotely or directly, even with books and blogs, art and cinema, Skype and YouTube, into what most people on Earth are interpersonally and economically experiencing. I only know the hells and heavens and purgatories of my own and my best friends’ locations.
I don’t want even to accidentally be presenting myself as someone who is embarking on a project that is purporting to be liberatory to children and women of color, or, frankly, to anyone of any ethnicity who identifies as radical feminist or Lesbian feminist, or Butch, unless that venture is clearly and unambiguously led by radical women of color, in partnership with white feminists. And unless clear and functional systems of accountability to those women are in place. Operative. “Online.”
This says nothing of my level of continuing presence here. It simply asserts something I need to state, and lays out some of the work immediately before me.