Report of My Eighth Week of Initiations for Rites of Passage ~November 11, 2012 ~ November 17, 2012

Children of the Sun, Diane Lee

Sunday – November 11, 2012 (Written November 13, 2012)

I went to the spiritual class that I facilitate every other Sunday. It’s a small group in which we
study a book called The Metu Neter, which is based upon ancient Kemitic (Egyptian) spirituality.
There is one person in the group who always challenges my knowledge. At times, he can be
quite confrontational. We have had ego battles for years. Sunday was such a day.

I was getting ready to begin the class when he corrected my explanation of a term, which I
qualified immediately. I also realized very quickly that I was playing into a battle that would
lead to great tension for all of us. Considering the week I had just experienced, I saw that I had
a chance to realign another part of my life so I addressed the issue.

I didn’t want to make this my personal issue, but it quickly became personal. One group
member suggested that we get it all out so that the issue could stop festering. This surprised
me because I didn’t know that this was what I wanted. I felt supported, especially when the
rest of the group agreed. They acknowledged that the battle had been going on for years. They
didn’t understand it and wanted it to end. Seems that the man and I are highly regarded and
they felt that the battle was beneath both of us.

[These reports are showing me how much of my life has been dedicated to fighting life. It’s
funny to me now because I can see it and I know I’ve got the violet and blue flames to correct
the disserving ideas and suffering.]

So the role of facilitator shifted to the man who suggested talking. I spoke as honestly as I could. I
wanted to get to the core issues so I found that I did more listening and observing than talking.

I learned that the man in the group felt that I was attacking him because I, too, corrected him. When
I asked myself what I wanted out of this situation, I discovered that I wanted the two of us to use our
knowledge to advance our understanding of spirituality, but he was unwilling to trust my intuition-
based knowledge and the channeled messages as reliable sources. He made it very clear that he wanted
no part of beings from other planets or channelings from celestial beings. In fact, there was only one
member of the group willing to discuss the possibility of life off-world and she would only do so in
private.

Once I understood that I desired to have physical comrades within the group and that this was
unrequited, then I could let it go. I really felt good about this because it meant that my acknowledgment
of my connection to the group Monad is growing stronger and more satisfying.

What could have become an explosive situation remained calm and communicative. I apologized to the
group. I thanked them for their patience and assistance. I would not have been able to connect the dots
without them. What was really interesting to me was how much closer I felt to the group. They really
cared. I felt several of my defenses dissolve. Seems the layers are peeling nicely.

Now, for lesson eight – my expectation of this week’s lesson was misguided. I thought the lesson would
be on Divine Power to complete the lessons on the three-fold flames. In fact, I’ve been expecting a
lesson on Divine Grace. Little did I know the lesson would be practical. Grace is exactly what I felt in my
confrontations with my mother and the group member. I felt no need to retaliate. I simply wanted to
cease participation in the rivalries and accept responsibility for my part as a Divine Being.

I did this. Very smoothly, I returned to my role as facilitator of the group and we ended the lesson as
usual. I don’t know what the aftermath will be, but I felt a deeper sense of unity among some and
uncertainty in others. The thing is, I feel ready for the next class.

This brings me to equanimity. This Rite has taken me by surprise. For one thing, a synchronistic event
has taken place. One of the triggers of the confrontation with the group member was the concept
of spiritual awareness. The word “awareness” was repeated often as we attempted to work out our
differences and the word showed up again frequently in the messages for this week’s Rite.

I wish I knew what to do with these synchronistic events.

Another thing about equanimity is that I’ve never really put much thought into it (hence, the need to be
more aware.) So, I’ve got to figure out what this message is actually trying to communicate.

I do know that while I was listening to the Mp3 message, I couldn’t keep still in my mind. I flew soaring
downing to the river, touching the gorge walls and then high in the air. I perched on the top of the pine
trees. I sat on the mountain peaks in Tibet and I became a sun facing our sun exchanging energy and
when I acknowledged my presence on the crystalline grid, I became a photon. I actually looked back at
myself as if asking for permission to travel the grid as a photon. Once granted, I took off dancing all the
way. In fact, before I flew down to the river, I danced up a storm, thinking, why am I alone up here?

Monday – November 12, 2012 (Written November 13, 2012)

I feel a greater need to accept responsibility. I don’t feel like I’m fighting much of anything anymore and
what is left is a need to take command of myself. I’m still hanging on to something, however, but I don’t
know what it is.

I have no doubt that it will reveal itself for transmutation.

Tuesday – November 13, 2012 (Written November 13, 2012)

“The nature of life on the material plane is just a series of temporal reflections, always changing.” I
never thought about this. Not only do we think and perceive in terms of time (past, present, and future),
but our thoughts are always in a state of flux, skipping in and out of these temporal states.

“From this understanding, we steadily make the transition to living our life within the Absolute Reality,
that which is the unchanging pure awareness of the vaster Self.” Equanimity

We are here to restore the remembrance of Divinity. Everything has a consciousness and a place in
Divine Alignment becoming self-aware. I process universal energy. I am a lightworker. I am a part of a
network of lightworkers. Together, we are manifesting Divine Perfection upon the earth.

Today, I sent off my report for last week. My mother and I had had a discussion about what I would say
so I told her that I said basically that the flames had shown me that I needed to be more cooperative
and I told her that I didn’t resent her anymore. She said that she was glad to hear that.

Somewhere in our conversation, she reiterated the December31, 2012 deadline and said she had hoped
that I would be woman enough to do something…I stopped listening because I felt fear rising again so I
concentrated upon the violet and blue flames. I want to get rid of all of the ideas that keep me so tied
up in fear that nothing can flow.

During my meditation, I felt something in my heart that appeared as a vision of light shining through
cracks in a wall. It was elusive. It seemed to be an understanding of the now moment and how my fears
are based upon past and future events. I have seen how my mother would push issues that alignment
would otherwise have taken care of perfectly. Maybe my fears serve as the same kind of block.

What I saw was that I was scared of the future because of the past, but that none of that had anything
to do with the now that I was experiencing. I was meditating and in a safe place to complete that
meditation and that by concentrating on the now, I would be giving alignment the room it needed to
bring about my desires – the things I want to co-create. Maybe this idea of my power is actually starting
to sink in – moving from the academic to the practical.

Wednesday – November 14, 2012

Okay. I have a lot of revelations emerging at one time and I’m going to try and sort them out.

First, I left out something that I noticed in my meditation last night – the most elusive part,
seeing that my mother is not trying to hurt me. It was like glimmers of truth trying to burst
through.

“Equanimity is our real nature. It is realized from the remembrance and understanding of the
One Consciousness at play in the weavings of our daily life.” Equanimity

“In this Rite, we are learning to serve through mental detachment as stilled instruments of
peace. This initiation helps us to live our daily life from the Absolute Reality.” Equanimity

This morning, I looked at my mother and she did not look or feel like an enemy. Now for the
violet and pink flames… I want to stop being her enemy.

General Notes

Our true nature is One Soul driven by Divine Will (Goodwill) and One Consciousness that is pure
awareness, All Powerful, Limitless, Divine, Potential.

Pure awareness is unchanging. It does not shift through time. It is an extended perception of
my vaster Self.

Stability and evenness of mind, undisturbed

“If we are to gain entrance into expanded states of consciousness….” Transfiguration

“We see the group as God sees it. Conscious and integral custodians of the Divine Plan.”

“The actualization of an integrated personality and the Christ Principle within involves the
complete resolution of the perception of duality and concepts of belief. This then triggers an
alchemical reaction of unity and synthesis within our entire energy field.” Transfiguration

“While walking the path of equanimity, we come to master the Law of Duality, rising above the
pull of matter, in full acceptance of the divinity inherent in all things.” Transfiguration

Not only are our thoughts based upon time (Past, Present, and future), but we perceive
meaning – judgment – based upon concepts, opinions, and philosophies which are also based
upon attraction and aversion triggered by emotions based upon sensory perceptions.

This thought activity must be shifted into pure awareness of the One Consciousness which
is driven by Divine Goodwill as we call for Divine Perfection in all. See the truth of the Divine
Hidden.

Thursday – November 15, 2012

Use my moments of awareness to call upon the Archangels, legions of angels, celestial beings and all
beneficent beings of light to help bring about the Divine Plan.

Removing those distracting, disserving repeating thoughts.

Friday – November 16, 2012

Yesterday, I worked very hard to maintain neutral thoughts and to feel or perceive oneness.

I had amazing results. First, I was able to block most of my judgments of my mother and myself.
There’s something weird going on with my perception of my mother. I’m getting flashes of her
that make her more real to me, like she’s changing into an entirely different person. If there’s a
veil dropping, it’s the one around her.

Second, my head is clear. There is so much less background noise in my head. My thoughts
seem clearer, cleaner, crisper. I feel stronger in working with the light. I feel a stronger
connection to my guides and it’s so much easier to let things go.

I want to travel like Samantha on Bewitched. I want to see myself at a place and just be there. I
tried it yesterday. I tried to go to the library and then come home. I have no perception that it
worked, but one day, I think it will so I’ll keep trying.

I want to focus more on what I want in my life instead of what I don’t want.

I’m having good results with being more cooperative. It’s helping to make me more aware,
opening me up to different understandings.

I’ve been trying to understand the concept of oneness. I don’t really get it. At first, I thought we
are all electrons so oneness is about formlessness so I tried to imagine myself and everything
else as formless. This was dissatisfying. Then, I saw myself as a natural part of landscape in the
meditation for this week’s Rite. By this I mean, I was supposed to be there like the trees.

Okay, following this reasoning, being in the “now” moment in a neutralized state of mind, my
being able to get up, move around, build myself a shelter, would be irrelevant. It is as natural
for me to be there as the ant. We all are sharing space. We are all physical.

Is all conflict about sharing space? I wrote down this quote from somewhere, “To explore the
infinite in the finite.” My first thought was genii in a bottle (Infinite cosmic power…tiny little
living space), but this isn’t supposed to be confining, limiting or frustrating.

Presently, our lives are based upon the economy. Everything revolves around money from the
time we get up until we go to bed. Money is based upon limited resources which take up space.
Even time is perceived as limited because “time is money.”

Okay, what about this? The space between two heartbeats is infinite. This is the state of
formlessness. The power of the photons and everything else resides here.

Here’s a quote from my notes that I wrote down back in 2010, “The meanings I give to things
are as powerful as nuclear bombs – the energy of which I use to hold matter into form.”

Here is another quote from the same time period about Tehuti, which can be recognized as
Thoth, Hermes, Vishnu, Joffiel, Elegba, etc. “The two proclamations or utterances are the sets
of antagonistic or conflicting ‘truths’ that must be reconciled in life.”

Pulses – form / formless; space between heartbeats; ants working to build their home in the
space I need to sit on the ground; lack / abundance; harmony / discord

Pulses – harmonies, rhythms, reconciling conflicts through higher consciousness.

Oneness – recognizing harmony instead of discord.

Recognition – giving meaning to hold matter into form

Divine Plan – Using intentions of Goodwill to hold matter into form.

Resolving conflict creates harmony, a song, art creativity, creation, creator

Love, Wisdom, Power – in the space of a heartbeat – Infinite Pulses, infinite creation, infinite
possibilities. Infinite songs.

Create form and function in relation to my intentions of Goodwill Love, Happiness, joy, peace,
perfection, alignment, health, prosperity, unity, harmony, excitement of fulfilling infinite
potential and possibility for all life in every place in every realm – known and unknown.

The resolution of conflict is the acknowledgment of infinity. This is Divine Truth.

As a member of the group Monad, there is infinite assistance in fulfilling my intentions.

Nurturing the moment – This is Soul (Christed) music. Funk (Piss and Urine, Funkadelics (Bootsy
Collins) and Uriel Jones) is sustaining and intensifying the moment by quickening the pulse.

Saturday, November 17, 2012

The reason there is infinite possibility is because we’re all connected. Everyone and everything
is made of light and, therefore, everything has intelligence – full of information

How can I use this to fly? Ask for cooperation from every particle involved. Cultivate a
relationship and ask for cooperation. Inter-relationships / Inter-dependence. If one thought
has the power of an atomic bomb, what power is there if every electron adds its thought-
empowered cooperation?

One atom is made up of electrons (power), protons (Love), neutrons (Wisdom). Every particle
has consciousness, but it is part of a group that serves a function. Each particle must cooperate
in order to fulfill its function. This is why conflict resolution is such a huge part of wisdom. The

group Monad works like this.

You give up everything in order to become infinite. The level of intimacy must be experienced
in order to grasp it.

I’m calling on the blue and Violet Rays to help me to untrench and transmute the ideas and
beliefs that block me from operating from a perspective of infinite unity. But, what I really want
is to focus on practicing this new understanding.

Summary (written November 20, 2012)