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Comparing Human Alien Types To Each Other
Gerick and I had a very interesting conversation this evening before he ran off to bed. Somehow, the subject of the (tall, athletic) Blond human aliens and the (willowy, sharp-featured) Brunette human aliens came up. We were comparing memories of that night in 2006.
He doesn't remember any more now than he did shortly after it happened (the pounding knocks on the window, that someone came over that night and so on) and of course I find this frustrating because I have these very interesting memories that I dare not trust completely without verification from someone besides me.
We started talking about the character we call “Ethan” (although both of us are sure that is NOT his real name!) and all the times we saw him in the 90s before things became very quiet for almost 10 years. I was going over my impressions of what it was like to be around all these very handsome, tall, people– greeting ordinary Earth humans like Gerick like long lost friends or family members. Everyone human seemed to know or recognize at least a few of the Nordic types– except for me. I knew Ethan, but no one else at all that I can recall from that group. I was happy to be there, but a part of me was cautious and just observant, wanting to see what would happen as the meeting progressed. With the dark-haired people, it was the same sort of thing. I knew ONE GUY. While most others there seemed to have groups they were familiar with.
I felt gratified to be included at all, because it was obvious I wasn't exactly with the group of people the same way Gerick was. There was no 'long lost friend' vibe happening for me at all. I was just watching and waiting.
I do have a few very limited possible memories of seeing these types of people as a very small child before ever meeting Gerick– but I don't count those yet. I don't know what to make of them. But for Gerick, its different. He has many memories of dealing with both the Blonds and the Brunettes off and on through childhood, adolescence, and adulthood.
He brought up what a different feeling there is being around the 2 groups. And as he has more experience, I listen when he talks about it, because he just doesn't talk about it much. But he was in the mood tonight of all nights.
The Brunettes are smart, and witty, and very– penetrating. But also more normal for what we're used to with most people. They laugh, they joke, they get jealous. They may look a bit more odd than the Blonds, but mentally they are more like us. This is what convinces Gerick at the end of the day that they are their own race and not just a Grey/Human hybrid type (although I think for inexperienced abductees, it would be easy to mislabel hybrids as either Blonds or Brunettes if you didn't actually know what to look for besides “humanish with blond or dark hair.”) Hybrids just by and large don't act quite right. As a group together there is a psychological divide quite deep and vast– the emotionality is just so darned awkward. It slams you as soon as you meet a hybrid. And the hybrids tend to appear lackluster energetically and have obvious grey-type features to varying degrees.
The Brunettes, by contrast, have those characteristic funky faces. Long, sharp noses, pointy chins (I mean really pointy) and very skinny bodies, but not like the hybrids. They have more shape to their lean features. As Gerick puts it, they look like vampire elves. White-white skin, red lips, raven black hair– they sort of have a built-in Goth thing going for them. I started calling them “The Darklings” at one point in time in my hand-written journals from the 90s. They have lots and lots of personality. Character. Very much unlike the hybrids– who only seem to stand out when they're manifesting a mental illness.
The Blonds or Nordics or Angelics LOOK more human (if a rather idealized Aryan version of human) but they don't FEEL like us when you're around them. Gerick recalled again how he used to fall to his knees and hug their legs in his youth because their presence so overwhelmed him (even compared to the “Dragon Fear” reaction of being around the Greys.) This matches with other accounts I've read where people just exclaim over how there is something incredibly holy about them. Their aura, their gaze– just reaches down and touches people in a very awe-inspired zone evidently.
And I don't know what to say to that, because I don't recall having that reaction. Maybe I did and just forgot. But also on the ship that night in September '06 when people were greeting the other Blonds on board, there was no worshipful behavior. Maybe this hits me a little differently because I wasn't raised Christian and was never brought up to feel awe for anyone or anything– spiritual or otherwise. Maybe I just processed my feelings differently than most do.
Because I would be lying if I said I didn't notice a difference with them as opposed to other people. My labels were just coming at things from a much more liberal perspective I think. In my post about them I joked about them as being a bunch of hippies ready for a love-in or something, and I wasn't really kidding about that on most levels. If you can picture the sincere hippies of that long ago era (and I barely can, as I'm almost too young to remember) that comes close. Or some of the pagan gatherings with some of the most sincere of the earth-loving tree-huggers. Sort of like that, only more composed and intellectual. Or maybe kind of like some Tibetan monks. They have a very obvious “Peace & Love” sort of vibe that seems to emanate from them. Its really hard to explain.
I'm wary of mind-tricks, so I don't allow that vibe to mean too much to me when I'm in the thick of things with them. I'm sorry, as the child of a con-artist and as a witness to ceaseless propaganda throughout my life, I just can't let myself buy what they seem to be implying they sell! Not that they seem to care if I'm not all ga-ga about them. I pay more attention to how they actually behave and what they actually say (IF I CAN REMEMBER IT!) So far, I only recall kindness (but for the memory suppression, which I don't count as a blessing) and gentleness. Even humor. Until I can remember more, I can't draw much in the way of conclusions from all this, but I will at this point agree that there is a difference with the Blonds that goes beyond their pretty faces and rocking bodies.
Again, from the body and faces to the gentle, Peace & Love thing– there is a distinct difference between these people and the hybrids. Even the very short-term forced love thing the Greys and hybrids can induce can not compare with this lingering and seemingly natural affectionate nature of the Blonds.
But then the conversation shifted slightly, and Gerick was talking about a memory from the ship that night. Specifically, he was talking about how he got into an argument with the Dark Doppleganger Dude. I have a partial memory that at the end of the meeting on the ship, before we left, Gerick and I approached the Brunette to talk or something. I had noticed him staring at me, and Ethan had said earlier that it was this sharp-nosed fellow who had pulled the covers over my shoulders that night in 1991. And when I was confused because I thought that guy didn't like me, Ethan informed me that I was WAY off. That in fact he liked me a lot.
All I could recall about talking to him later on the ship in '06 was that he was upset with Gerick– but I didn't tell Gerick WHY I thought he was upset. So when Gerick spontaneously brought it up himself, I asked for clarification: Why was that guy angry? Gerick got thoughtful, but he was also a bit irritated, and said that the Dark Guy was like a brother to him, but he didn't like the way Gerick was treating me and was actually arguing with him about it.
Which is what I remembered.
I had been suicidally depressed from out of the blue for some reason and Gerick didn't really take it seriously. But it was more than that. Gerick can be a bit of an ass to me from time to time. Not normally– but when stressed I AM the closest outlet. And meeting with the aliens makes him a bit stressed out, imagine that! Anyway, he had been curt and dismissive of me since they arrived, and then either gave me looks of disgust or ignored me most of the time after we reached the ship (see how I leave out things that would make him look bad?) I mean, I was embarrassed by his behavior more for HIM than for ME, because he comes off being such an ass sometimes. Meanwhile, here are these odd beings from another world or dimension, and it doesn't even occur to him that for someone who is supposed to be a special agent or friend of theirs or something, he's just not living up to the obvious expectations of someone in his position!
Dark Guy noticed it and was itching to bitch at him for it. I remember Gerick basically making excuses for himself and saying its hard 'down here' because things just get to him (which is why he had to be such an ass to me, apparently.) Really? Its hard to be respectful of people? Funny. I don't seem to have that problem and I live down here too. *rolls eyes* I mean I was really embarrassed for him. Being a part of that scene I wanted to sink into the floor (yeah, I left those details out of my post about it months ago as well.) However, a part of me was also — I admit it!– gratified to see someone step up and call Gerick out on this sort of shit. Its ridiculous for him to behave like some sort of overgrown baby. Embarrassing.
~NOT IN FRONT OF THE ALIENS DEAR!~
Anyway– I asked Gerick if he couldn't remember being on the ship– how could he possibly remember that argument? And he didn't have an answer except that maybe the emotions of it made a portion pop out or something. He didn't even remember where they were when they had the argument (and I mean I remember yelling and gesturing and some Blonds sort of hovering near-by in case it got physical!) Its really a very embarrassing scene to recall, but the very prosaic nature of it makes me think this may be a real memory– especially as I now finally have Gerick verifying some aspect of it.
2012-08-29 03:08:27
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