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A Sense of Mission
This post is in response to one of my friend Mike in his blog, Hidden Experience:
http://hiddenexperience.blogspot.com/201
Mike mentions how strongly he personally feels a sense of mission, and I felt I knew exactly what he meant– but several comments were coming at the idea from the more prosaic angles, so I felt the need to clarify better what I believe he's trying to get at…
My comment was:
I think the normal “sense of mission” most people think of, and the ABDUCTEE sense of mission are a little different on several fronts:
1. We have a very strong sense of it from childhood that doesn't seem directly connected to our personal wants and dreams. We feel it coming to us from some outside source, rather than generating it from within as we develop like most people do. “I want to save animals,” or “I want to work with abused children,” are NOT the kind of MISSION we're talking about here.
2. Its not a 'savior complex' type of thing (being the special single person everyone 'oohs' and 'aahs' over) so much as a joining with many others to keep things from totally falling apart. Moreover, we don't expect to be rewarded or looked up to, but feel the need to keep it secret and hope to avoid notice if possible. We feel it will be possibly very dangerous at some points and not very rewarding– but we believe we'll feel compelled to do it anyway.
3. Its about having a role like a JOB that we'll be jumping into at some point. Thankless, but necessary. What's more, few of us are sure just exactly WHAT that job will be. Very rarely, some of us will remember being trained for specific activities that will be needed in the future.
4. The sense of waiting drives us a little bit batty in the meantime. You don't want things to go crazy (as it seems it must before the mission begins) yet being caught in a holding pattern feeling useless is frustrating too. You want to either get on with things or prepare better, and you're never sure which way to go– so you end up switching back and forth your entire life.
Many people can understand the idea that all of us (or at least most of us) can have the potential to find some special mission in life in which we find a place to make a difference for the better in the world.
Most of us can understand that there are egomaniacs that would LOVE to be as special to other people as they believe themselves to be– just for existing perhaps, or maybe they have delusions of grandeur where they're actually a messiah in their own mind.
But neither the honorable sense of mission, nor the deplorable sense of mission is what's being addressed. At least not for me. I'm guessing Mike feels like I do-?
A better survey question would probably be: *”Do you have a nagging and profound sense of mission that involves a job you feel you'll be performing in a future that seems so different than today as to seem unreal?” –but that's a little long!
I like that these intimate personal details can be brought up and poked a little, because part of the experience of being an abductee or any person who undergoes events and encounters from the lesser-known side of reality isn't just what happens, its what those happenings do TO you.
I could also add to my description:
“5. Our rational minds keep trying to feed us lingering doubts that there is any legitimacy to the feeling of mission, despite the intuitive and emotional absolute certainty that there MUST be something real to do later on that will explain it all. It doesn't make any sense, even if you remember real encounters, to keep having faith in something that hasn't happened yet, but a part of us can't seem to help it, much to our chagrin.”
You don't want to be right. You don't want to be wrong. But you sure don't want to wonder for the rest of your life which one you'll end up being! Just let me know so I can get on with things already! No matter how you look at it– its uncomfortable.
2012-08-29 03:08:41
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