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IFS X: Evaluating Contacts
I got a lot figured out this last week, so I've decided to put off working with 2 hurt Shadows until next week.
In any event, that was interesting! What's weird is that I'm imagining the dialogs, yet things come up or are said that surprise me. Little things mostly, but all the same, its a weird mental trip. But hey, if it helps me get my shit together– it is worth it!
Can't hurt in any event!
I guess the most interesting revelation, which wasn't a secret, but more like an 'untouched issue,' was the revelation of my “first broken heart” and the Shadow of “Daddy's Little Girl.”
Though my father was always moody and prone to losing his temper, he still adored me incredibly until I was 8 years old. Then he fell apart, as did my mother in her own way, but she stepped up to support the family when my father no longer could. Further, she didn't blame my father for his failures. She complained about them to other people for sympathy but didn't really seem to feel any anger towards my father.
I was also impressed by how the scary Bad Dad character in my head so swiftly became nervous and confused during the session, pretty much running away after bringing up Daddy's Girl. Just… huh? But it did knock down the aura of authority this particular Inner Critic possessed.
Summers was a happy surprise and I liked envisioning this Guide and rolling with it. It was really comfortable for me.
Bitterwitch amuses me. I can see where she blends with me or takes over from me. I'm hoping I can have improved control over my stompy foot rants in the future knowing where this part of me is coming from.
Next week, I'm going to see if I can do contact sessions with both Shadows/Exiles. Just figure them out and hear their point of view.
Still later I want to do healing sessions for both Rays and both Shadows.
Finally, I have to say that I DO like the way doing this IFS thing allows me to take an otherwise negative experience and cultivate it for inner healing. Helps me feel less helpless in the face of those automatic reactions. Maybe someday I won't have so many automatic reactions and can enjoy and live my life like I did before my marriage got ran off the rails!
Source: http://lucretiasheart.livejournal.com/1218359.html
